This week has been a little crazy and I am pretty tired. I found out yesterday that I have been approved for licensure in NM for over six weeks, but no one bothered to inform me of that. I am trying to believe that there was some higher purpose for that, but I may never know. So, today I put in my four weeks notice to the director and my supervisor. The director took it very well and my supervisor, not so well. Oh well. My last day here will be either September 30th or October 1st depending on whether they will let me go a day early and use a vacation day or not.

I am really trying to embrace the idea of change and uncertainty since this is what I have wanted for so long, but my pessimistic nature bubbles to the surface every so often leaving me gasping for breath from panic. The what-ifs multiply in my head like dime store rabbits. I have been trying to picture erasing them off a black board in my head. Just like the blackboard though, a chalky residue remains. I think that it’s hitting everyone else in a similar fashion. Everyone has known for a while that I wanted to go, but as long as there was no definite date, they could just shove to the back of their minds and play like Scarlett.

Despite the many doubts, I know that I am doing what is right for me for once. I am going home and leaving the nest in one move.

Love to all.