Floating in a lukewarm pool amid the bouncing reflections of light hitting the rippling surface—I love that feeling. I have been feeling that way for a few days now. Sort of just floating along, enjoying the scenery, but not really affected by much of anything. It’s a good feeling. I’ve been able to decide a few things during the break.

One is that I absolutely have to start eating healthier which has been a struggle in Miss Kitty’s house. She is prone to making up a box of macaroni and cheese and calling it dinner. I feel somewhat obligated to cook for her, but some of the main healthy things that I like to eat—she doesn’t. Ah, I’ll just make what I want and she will choose to eat it or not. Two is that I am not getting involved in her problems. She wanted me to encourage Polyester to get a job and move out. I’m not gonna. Three is that Stone is not the boy for me. He’s definitely smart, interesting and easy to talk to, but I think he feels easily threatened and is struggling with his confidence. I understand that, but I’m just not interested in being the girl who gives him back his mojo. I’ve played that part and I’m not interested.

So, at this juncture, I am considering my options for moving. I’m still leaning toward North Carolina, but other options keep coming up. I think at this point I have one friend in Portland, OR and two more planning to move there. It seems like a good place to be. The one friend living there (sort of) rents a townhouse, but is away most of the time and she said that I could have it mostly to myself with my own bed and bath. Hmmm. I guess I am also thinking about New Mexico. I don’t know if it’s the land of my birth thing that calls me back there or my sister or what the fuck. I keep thinking of my time up in Taos last year. Other than all of the wedding craziness, it was a cool place to be. I’m not saying I would want to live up there year round, but if I ever have a ton of money, I am so going to have a house up there.

Well, I had better wrap this up. There’s a client coming.

Love to all.